This was just about a hour before I had the worst moment of my life. When the dr. came in the room and told us that Tyson's appendix had burst then I had a hard time hearing much else he was saying. My first thought was to starting prayer. I prayed that God would allow me to keep my little guy. I was so scared that he was going to die (I didn't know then how often this does happen and that really he was going to be ok) and I started to think of my life without him. Ty had been my buddy his whole life and I keep thinking of how inadequate of a mother I had been to him. I hated seeing him and pain and then more tears flowed as I thought of me telling him that whole day that he needs to quit being dramatic and eat something. I thought about how I had left him on my bed to watch TV alone for a hour or so and how if I had known I would have held him all day. I think until the day I die I will feel bad about that day.
A year later Tyson is doing great! He had had some problems with some scarring in his large intestine from the surgery causing some constipation problems but we got those figured out. These pictures remind me of all of those crazy feelings I felt that weekend for my little guy. I am SO glad that's over and even though I learned a lot from it I hope I NEVER have to do something like that again!
1 comment:
Yuck...so glad it over with.
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